distance to psychical disaster ...

 hi ...

what was I saying about friends a while ago? can i subtract that? Not everything ... just ... that part when i depend on them ... because they hurt me a lot sometimes. Maybe it's just me and I act as a spoiled brat ... but I was invisible for 3/4 of my life and now I thought that I am worth something and some people will actually see me and not just point at me and start laughing. I actually thought I had somebody in the world that knows when I hurt ... but it looks like I was wrong. ... No shit Sherlock one would say ... Pain of others really is a delight for some ... really ... Life is such a leaving nightmare ... (that's one hell of a paradox)

Todays' song: In The End - Linkin Park (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5AWbgkRpYwc)

bye!  (really love avatars! they can really express any feeling i have ... )

halloween ... no party for me ...

Bonjour! (I like a to speak in many languages)

Two days till Halloween and in my country we don't take it too serious ... but I do. I would like to dress up and have a party. PARTY!!!! But no. God I hate my crappy home town and my crappy country and my shitty life ...
I am still going to walk around town dressed like a cowgirl and one of my friends will be all dead and stuff ...

I lack awesome cloths. Actually if it weren't for my awesome few friends I would have never thought of being an open minded person. I think if it weren't for them i would be full of hate and such.... probably would have been into smoking and alcohol or any other stupid habit ... right now i just watch animes like a retard.

yeah .. second problem today: Life like an American movie!  ... meaning: I like this guy and he doesn't know it ... well ... one day I was walking backwards because I was talking to him and telling him one of my stupid jokes, and i stumbled on the teachers desk and hit my hip. It hurt like hell and some of my school friends (to whom I pretend to be normal and whom have no idea of how I really am) started laughing their buts off. "Just like an American movie!". (Now I remember that at his 18th birthday party they kind of shoved him into me. ... :"> *blushy me*). They also laughed because some time ago I broke one of my heels when i was leaving a club (where I was dragged by them) because i was talking to an ex-boyfriend and I slipped on some stairs. (thank God i didn't break anything else).

Oh ... so ... I wander what's your "American movie" memory? Or if not, got any Halloween plans?

See you later unknown dreamer!
 до свидания!


(sorry if it's wrong ... blame Google translate ... )

P.S. Today's song -> Queen - Bicycle Race (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GugsCdLHm-Q)

Owl City- Rainbow Veins

hey!

I love this song! and  lot more from Owl city. Their songs make my stomach feel fuzzy and I feel really relaxed. Enjoy!

P.S. video not mine... you get it.

Instantáneas (Snapshots)

"A few days ago there was a questionnaire for 100 internet users that asked which 3 photos they considered the most important in history.

The first one was the explosion of the atomic bomb  which dropped over Nagasaki. 

The second one was the first man walking on the moon.

But I liked the third one most. It depicts two lovers kissing each other while the world is moving around them. It's good to know that in the three most important pictures in history there is one of two lovers ... frozen in a never-ending kiss ... saved from being forgotten ... Maybe that's what we feel when we look at old photos. They remain unchanged like a mosquito trapped in amber for millions of years. The world keeps moving, but they are trapped forever unchanged. Like pictures held in a shoe box, moments of an other time will never return. 

A war photographer, Lewis Hine was asked why he has chosen that kind of profession. He responded that if everything can be explained with words there wouldn't be a need for him to record every moment on camera. I agree. There are things which can't be explained with simple words ... Things like staying alive ... feelings like love and compromise ... Maybe that's the reason that our lives consist of photos. Moments frozen in time forever ... Of decisions that change that change the course of things without redemption ... Of photos stored in our minds .... Which remind us in every moment how beautiful life can be ... "

( "Los Hombres de Paco" - Instantáneas )

I really hate soap-operas, but I like this ... I really do <3. Herd it here ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F8qqF_5gRA4&feature=related The anime used is Hetalia, one of the best animes ever. The video is very touching and i really enjoy watching it. I think that from now on i will take a lot more photos because when I remember my childhood photos i feel all worm and fuzzy inside ... I really like that feeling.

See you soon Unknown dreamer and make your life more beautiful every day!

Au revoir! <3

 

can't wait for highschool graduation !!!

hello!~

Today we talked about graduation at school ... and i can't wait! 7 more months to go! woot!

Also i wander if I can put a video from online around here... hmmm....~ *searching and trying all buttons*

Did I ever mention that I have no life? and that I try to learn how to do my makeup look cute ... or sexy for that mater??

Have to go! see you later unknown dreamer!

Auf Wiedersehn!

just for the lolz ...

hi again!

Still trying to poke my eyes out of my head ... I don't sleep enough ... related to this, I read this article (which I have from a dear friend) : http://shine.yahoo.com/event/momentsofmotherhood/user-post-how-to-awaken-a-teenager-2402224    ...  I laughed at it because I find myself in that teens' position and i really pity my mom for trying to wake me up in the morning. (my favorite T-shirt has written: "I hate mornings!" :P)

 

Second: I didn't tell you till now but I am an anime freak! I love animes! They are kind of my daily drug since 7th grade ... (is currently in her 12th grade)

Third: I freaking love music! all kinds of music: from rap to rock, from pop to classics (I like instrumental music :P) even if I have the worst voice ever and i can't even play any instrument (even if in 10th grade I tried playing the guitar).

 

Forth: I am not very sociable ... I mean ... My skills don't include talking to people ... or any of what's related to that ... I suck! But I really treasure the few friends that I have and hope to make more ... I really hope so.

Fifth: I am kind of mad (just like any person out there) and I really like showing it! For this, one of my favorite songs is: Midnight Beast - Tik Tok Parody. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4npUdfEmbQ )
Oh and ... Did i mention I love avatars, pictures and  learning things in different languages? ...

So that's all for today! Going to sleep before my mom kills me from staying up till late ... again ~ So have a nice day and a nice life! See you later unknown dreamer!

Good bye!

First up!

So ...  hi?!

Life is kind of sucky but I like to see it like an endless dream. Nightmare or sweet dream? my choice ...
It's no fun in taking life seriously and i love to play so I came up with this shitty name ( blogg title). Also I like fluffy, pink stuff so that explains the theme and ... yeah ...  since it's past midnight and i have school tomorrow I'm going to say nighty-night and sleep well! see you soon dear unknown dreamer!

Ciao!

P.S. Image is not mine. I think I got it from www.deviantart.com .